I always want to hear how people think of me. How they see me as a friend or a classmate. It’s better to hear negative comments, well, we all have flaws. Right? So in that way, I can change them and be a better person.

• requirements for provincial scholarship program now completed! I submitted my last requirement this afternoon. 
• Darn, it feels like i am not used to the place. Id spent my 4years there, roaming around, reminds me of my HS days. 
• Headed to my college friend’s bday.
• talked with my girls classmates for this sem.
• Chikka to maxxxx!!
• talked with the guys.
• we’re not VAIN! Seriously. No pictures!
• Sometimes i feel like betraying my loveey when i talk to guys, seriously. I hate the feeling.
• So when i got home, i texted him and told him everything. blah blah.
• he said it’s okay. coz they’re my friends.
• Yeah, i just hate the feeling. That’s why i only have few guy friends. I mean guys he doesn’t know at all.
• Happy to have an understanding boyfriend.
• Miss him much!

Night night! =)

• Yeah, it sucks coz i wasn’t able to go with him yesterday. Im just stupid and trying to make things here (home) a little comfy coz yeah i dont wanna be in the freakin hot seat every time we eat blah blah
• Oh yeah, it feels bad when i have no choice but to say no to him and his friends coz i know the feeling of getting a no. blah blah
• And of course, I FEEL BAD, NO. WORSE. Coz I wanted to go. As In waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant! Bitter me, next time, i wont let myself feel this way again.
• Remember the GOLDEN RULE?
• Coz there’s someone i always ignore but this someone just bashing anyone whenever he/she wants to. And it’s gettin on my nerve. Im always pissed when heshe does that. Im trying my best to ignore himher completely, but that’s hard, as in hard like hell.
• Like what? Can you just stop saying these things, coz it’s too obvious you’re referring to me, or our friends, your friends and all the people. You notice everything! Every detail, and saying things like that makes people think, well, makes me think that you’re so awesome and perfect so that’s why you have the courage to bash people just like that.
• And please, Im not that person you think I am. I am just telling the truth. And being true or not isnt the issue here. JUST STOP THROWING WORDS THAT YOU KNOW CAN HURT PEOPLE/FRIENDS COZ IM FREAKIN TIRED OF THIS. IM SAYING THIS COZ I GET HURT SOMETIMES AND AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO FIGHT BACK, I HOLD BACK COZ I KNOW YOU’LL GET HURT AND I DONT WANNA HURT PEOPLE.
• So what now?! I forgive and forget easily but what now? I think I can never be the old me in front of you. Coz Im afraid that you’ll talk things behind my back and that’s what i hate most.
• Feels good to release this feeling. Im kinda sad and disappointed for the past months. seriously.
• Sorry and Goodbye. 
• Oh I had fun with my crazy siblings last night.
• coz my jeje brother (just kiddin) walked inside our room while i and sissy were talking, well. He was in slow motion and the first thing we saw was the notebook with his drawing, i think it’s the face i always see in 9gag. Scary! He has good hands, i wish i can draw too!
• we end up laughing, coz my sis scared him too! Hahaha.
• I kinda forget the bad feeling, and fell asleep EARLY! Like 12am? haha!

——so that’s it. Not interesting. 

Wooooooaaaah. Hello there. I’m still alive and kicking. 20 days. 20 freaking days to go and I’m gonna say Hello again to my school. 

FS na ba talaga? 

My god, rica, seriously? Still having second thoughts? 

Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Bakit?

Foreign Service.

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Minsan naiisip ko, sana talaga nagtransfer na lang ako sa up last year. Like hello. Bakit ko ba naisipang humingi ng sign para sa kinabukasan ko. Baliw baliwan lang?!

Ayyyyy. dehh. Sure na ko. Sure na. Bahala na si Lord, Amen.

Simula na ng pagbablog. Pero minsan may feeling ako na parang ayaw ko magblog. Ewan ko ba. May blog naman ko dati na halos araw araw ako nagkekwento tungkol sa school at sa <3 ko. haha. 

Hindi ako magkandaugaga sa pagaayos ng facebook lists ko kanina. Hide dito. Hide doon. Ang hirap kasi lalo pag yung mga batang kinder palang dati, ina-add ka na rin. Yung mga grade school na, syempre ano ba namang alam nila sakin diba? Napapadami na rin ang mga kamag-anakan kong my facebook. At syempre, alam niyo rin yung feeling non na pag nagkita kita kayo sasabihing ay “si ineng may ano nakita ko sa facebook”. Nakakaloka yun! Si mama nga adik na sa facebook. Mobile pa gamit. Haha!

Sa totoo lang sobrang limitado na ng facebook ko. Siguro 80% nakasalamuha ko na ng personal. Yung 20% eh yung mga taong cool at interesting. Kasama nadin don yung mga kaibigan at koneksyon ni A. 

Pag matagal ka na talaga sa mga social networking sites, mararamdaman mo yung feeling na ayaw mo ng magshare ng bagay bagay. Kung dati, halos bawat oras may mga pinopost kang kung ano-ano. Ngayon, halos wala na. 

Akala mo sa una, okay lang magshare pero kinalaunan, hindi din pala okay magshare.

Hm. May sense ba ito? Walang koneksyon ang bawat talata. Ah basta. Malabo to, ang dami kong ginagawa eh.

-march

Wow! It’s day 4 of my summer vacation. Yes! IKR, so late. Grabe lang but that’s fine. The previous sem was really tiring. Grabeng pagaaral ginawa ko, grabe ding pakikisama. Grabeng pasensya at sipag. Wow. To think na dalawa lang ang major, what about next sem? I heard there are 5. Yes na yes! Nakakaba, but i must be nervous for the coming week. Hindi ko matancha! Hindi ko masabi. But, I’m hoping! 

Ciao!